While everyone is celebrating our nation’s independence, enjoying fireworks and barbecuing food, I spent the day going from stop to stop.
I thought the most excruciating part would be the bus ride down to Kaohsiung. Luckily there is no time difference between Malaysia and Taiwan, and I was dozing off by the time I got on it.
This trip was decided on a whim, and I didn’t research it religiously like how I used to.
I have come to the point in life again, where I need to sit down, recollect my thoughts, and ponder upon my future.
Two years ago, I was given the opportunity to work at my dream company. But due to unpredicted circumstances I had to pack up everything and move home, foregoing what I saw as ‘once in a lifetime chance’.
The change was hard as photojournalism is not prevalent in Malaysia. I knew how to get to where I want when I was in the States. But back home, I lost all connections and do not know where to start from.
I worked on personal projects, I looked for other opportunities but because of my limited experiences in South East Asia, I had a lot of doors closed on me.
I no longer had the spirit I used to have when I touched down on the Malaysian soil. My first reaction was to go somewhere else.
I have always had this thought that going to another unfamiliar place is like reading a book. You set yourself in this world where reality can’t hurt you.
I spent a few weeks in Cambodia enjoying the Angkor temples, sitting at bars eating tropical fruits while watching people rushing home during rush hour.
Then I went home and started working at the biggest broadcast company in KL.
Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting different result. – Albert Einstein
Well then, I have definitely lost my marbles those 12 months. I lost my edge, I lost my curious mind, I lost my sarcasm, I lost who I am originally.
Another stint at a magazine company made me think about what kind of company I want to work for in the future.
I have yet to find the perfect answer, and while I am here, working on personal projects, exploring this country, I hope to find myself again.